Utterance

There's always a chance for a brand new start for all of us. Whether it's with your family,friends and that special someone. Perfect chance for a perfect changes...well of course it's not basically "perfect", but we all know that deep inside our minds we wish that what we could change to is the perfect being for her/him. After all, enduring love needs a positive attitude.So let's start with that...


Today I've gained that chance to made a change for her,my special girl. I've always wanted to show her that this relationship is not all for fun. I will fight whatever this world throw towards us.For my heart wishes for her smiles. It just cries for those magical bends of her lips with those cute little dimples in her cheeks.


There are already tears that is wasted for a cost that is meaningless. So I wished to grab her heart back to my care,where it really belongs. At start it is hard to be in a battle that you are so unprepared. There are fights all over our relationship that we don't know how to stop blaming each other. With all those screaming and shouting turned my mental state into confusion. I suddenly felt the urge to say how my heart really feels....



"My heart."

While we are fighting all I can hear is the sound of my beating heart. It's about to explode with so much vague anger. Then my mouth opened and about to say the hindered answer.....

"I LOVE YOU."

I felt the calmness that those words brought to my heart. The simple sincerity of a love that wants to survive in the jungle of trials.Then everything stopped, silence seeps in and we started to remember that love.I can't believe that I almost told her those feelings that I'll surely regret saying but I didn't, for I can't. My mind stops to think because of all that confusion but the mind of my heart prevents my mouth to utter those unneeded words. The love in my heart forbid me of such anger and provided me that simple answer to all our problems. It is to simply put everything else into nothing and start where everything had began. The love that starts with those three words "I LOVE YOU". There and then I embodied that warmth of love and manifest it towards her hearing ears,with comfort that I wanted her to be caressed with. Words falls down like rain drops flowing towards her heart that weaken her rock emotions caused by pain and anger. Everything had started all over. We seek again for each others care. Wishing for those comforting hugs and irreplaceable kisses. Dreaming that by the closest time possible we could touch each others hands which caries our bound emotion towards one another. Carrying each others thoughts in our own open field of free expressions through the love that juxtapose our hearts. We waked up from a nightmare and continued living in reality with our simple love that conquered our hearts.I'll change for you, for our love and for us.Whatever we might face let's just stand firm cause I know no matter what, we can fight and I believe in that.


I love you my princess.
I love you my sweet.
I love you my baby.
I love you my bata.
I love you and that is true.
I love you....
All of it are for you.

After all, I'm not enough. To move on is different to forget. Am living on and differences would go on. So hold on cause everything will be vice versa baby...Changes will occur as the world revolves to it's core. I love you damn you. NO!

I'm waiting

I look upon the clear blue sky as the rain started to fall. Feelings that started to manifest outside my physical boundaries. I feel the darkness of being alone, being forsaken of someone whom really cares. Everything i wished to have forever was gone. She only knows what's outside my mind and heart. Our relationship blocked her way through those parts. Her understanding over me changes and concluded to a painful result. I'm alone if she won't come back and waiting is the only thing that I could do for her. If ever I have to face the painful reality then I'll try to live but there's no guarantee. I've come this far because you made me hold on to life. Now if your decision is the worst than what I ever can hold. I wish I should just have died long ago for everything would be nothing. All my life I feel I am alone. Like nobody really cares to know me much more than you do. Like nobody understand my feelings and thoughts. I've gained freedom from your words. I've gained happiness all because of your love. Now if you're gone, all I will ever have is nothing but the emptiness deep inside my heart. That I wish you could fill up forever. A dream that keep up as a dream. Now hope makes me alive as I wait. Love makes me to wait. You makes me to wish that you'll forever be mine. I just can't live without your sweet hugs. Your wonderful thoughts and silly jokes. The way you walk and the way you smile makes my world goes around. I might sound like a fool but this words is really your love. This is what makes me to live. I love you if only I could say that to you hoping that the words "I love you too" will reach my heart. But I'll be waiting for your precious answer to unfold itself. I love you. A phrase that is perfect to say for you.

My heart screams for only you.

I felt the heavy burden of this responsibility that my mind shuts to think. We both tried to fight for so long but suddenly I just think that this is the end of it. Those trials we've been through had crushed my sense of sight to the situations we're in. That it causes blindness to my eyes for me to not be able to think. It's been a long fight that is hard and full of suffering.We tried to cling on it and continue to walk with lots of wishes for our future. Yet, everything became so suddenly. Just by a glimpse my everything which is you started to crumble and disappear. I just started to surrender to our promise that forever will be always with us. I broke your heart and made you cry and it was all because of my selfishness. I'm afraid to love you more for I've been inflicting only pain in your heart. I wish to hide to my weaknesses for me not to be able to hurt you anymore. But all of that was wrong. I shouldn't have let my heart go for you are everything I have. You are everything I wish. I know I didn't show improvements but I'm planning to. It's hard to change I admit and also I am weak. So letting you go is not really my choice. You don't know how much pain that I need to endure just to say those words to you but I know it's nothing compared to the pain you have gained. I don't want to make you cry, specially to hurt you. I just tried to make a choice for you to be able to live a life smiling and free from all the sufferings that I'm inflicting to you but the truth is I also can't let you go. I want to be with you forever. To be able to see our children playing while embracing you. All my life I been looking for a person whom can make my world complete and it was you. It is only you. I'm not afraid to be alone, I am afraid to live without you. Please forgive me. I'm asking for another chance to make this precious relationship to grow. Bata I love you and I will fight for you.

Kupal KA

Wala akong magawa nung nagising ako at lumayas ng bahay at walang mapuntahan.Kaya eto na lang.Enjoy.Wrong grammaring yata yan, so intindihin nyo na lang.Tutal naman nakikibasa na lang kau.:)))Peace.X)



I'm here to ease up your pain.
Now I'm the one who's down.Who's there to lift me up?
All this time my time have been shared to you.
Now all I ask is some of your precious time.
I have offer serenity for you to be able smile again.
Now I just ask for someone to talk with.
You shared to me every problem that you're having and had.
Now I'm the one who wants to do that.
All my attention are in your crib.
Now I just want you to take a glimpse on my concerns.
I have joined you when you want to take a walk.
Now I just want to sit down and speak.
I have tried to remove the thought that I'm tired, for me to be able to join you in your lonely nights.
For I care.
For I'm a son, a brother, a friend, a boyfriend and a human being who loves you.
Now I'm alone.
Why?I don't know but I'll fight even though it is hard being just me.
Just say thank you next time, OK?
See you and goodbye.

Dad

You have shown me the right path to take.This is for the man who show me the world as a world that have pure right choices.He is the one who committed the sin of letting me grow.He is the one who loved me in a way that is unexplainable.He is my father.I love you dad.


You showed me the ways of a man
created a tough wall inside my mind
taught me to have a will with immense solidity
For me to live as the foundation of my own life
Now your about to leave
but your teachings will stay
you might be physically not here
but in our hearts you'll always there
for us you would never leave
your love would never abondon us
for we know your love is a power from God
and you laid it with such great craft
Thank you for everything
and as you leave i give you this
And i want you to believe
that we'll be able to live
with smiles in our hearts
with the accomplishments we will have
Don't be afraid
this family will be taken cared of
i'll do my best
for i know you'll do as well
Again thank you for everything
This son of yours is proud to have a dad like you.
We love you.

"Hear Me Out"

I will soon.

"I thought a thought but the though i thought i thought wasn't the though i thought it would be.So i just beat this feeling bit by bit until it's all beaten down in it's feet.Smile with me and go with me miles,miles away."-I wish i could dish this out to you.