Facing Reality is not my thing..

i keep on dreaming that one day your love will be mine..
but now that i have the chance to..
i don't have the courage to say my feelings to you..
to say that i love you..
many things are disturbing my mind..
many things that i'm so afraid about.
i wanna hold your hand...
i want to be the reasons behind those smiles..
i need you..
and i love you so much..
if only i can say those words to you..
if only....
and now
it feels like i want to escape to this feelings...
i can't face it..
the results of this words...
i'm too afraid...
scared...
disturbed..
i'm frustrated to myself...
i want to.but i can't..
i love you,but i'm too afraid..
and all i can do is to dream..
dream that i already have you..
and let myself to enjoy to those foolish lies..
my courage can't fight this frightened feeling..
i'm sorry..
(for what?
hahahahaha!!!!!!)
i can't face reality!!!